Disappointment

Staring at the ceiling, reflecting on what I should've have done a long time ago. I've let disappointed everyone , my parents, my friends and even myself. It is too late for regrets now, what's done is done, I've only got myself to blame...

It was the period of time when I had to take my 'O' Level Examinations, everyone was busy studying for their papers. Except for one student however , that student was me. Before that, I was usually the top student in class until, I got hooked up to online gaming a few months before the exams.

It all began with one question from a friend of mine, or should I really consider him as one?

"Do you want to go to the Cyber Café with us?" Dexter asked. I was relunctant at first, but eventually relented as it was a Friday, and I did not have activities on. The moment I started playing, I was unstoppable, even I couldn't control myself. Week after week, we would go to the Cyber Café. Making matters worse, the moment I got home on school days , I would turn on the computer and started playing. From afternoon to early next morning, then attend school.

I would sleep through classes, and I felt really restless when I wasn't playing, I would start to get very frustrated, and vent this frustrations on my friends. Eventually, I started to lose my friends, even my bestfriend. The days of the exams drew nearer...

It was a month before the exams, here I am, thinking I could do last minute studying. I opened my textbooks, and realized that I could not understand most of the subject topics, I called up my 'friends' but none of them were willing to help me. I felt really helpless at that point of time, eventually the temptation to play took over.

It was the day of the 'O' Level examinations, I couldn't answer seventy-five percent of the questions. I was a goner, I panicked, I couldn't think straight, I didn't know what I was doing. I put my pen down, and stared at the ceiling.